Finding Peace Amidst Imperfection

I only have a few minutes to share this thought. Must get ready for work. I like my job. But do I wish today were Saturday? Yes. Do I wish Bob didn't have to work from 12-9:30 on Saturday? You betcha. I have almost trained my mind to recognize that thought, capture it, and quickly jump to another thought. It's a beautiful morning. Very still today. The sun is angling in across the yard and the kitchen counter. The counter is clean. The stove burners are not. The carpet is not. The windows are spotted. The chores are never done. The chores of life are never done. We are works in imperfect process. If I search for more imperfections, I will find them. If I search for peace, I'll find that too. The slow in and out of my breathing. The quiet in the house. The knowledge that God loves me, that Bob loves me, that I've been blessed with caring friends who have helped me through many a lonely Saturday. They understand. They have their own imperfections, and I do my best to empathize and help them on the pathway to peace. Love helps everything. It's the brake pad of life that keeps hard things from hitting each other. I'm always free to choose love. And peace. The hippies sure had that right! Peace out.

Just for Today

Just for today I'll make friends with the pain
I won't run away, I'll just let it rain
And I'll feel, I'll be real
Let the tears fall where they may
Just for today

Just for today I'll surrender this longing
To take what I want when it's not what I need
Let it go, bare my soul
I'm letting go of the reins
Just for today

Tomorrow is too much to bear
And yesterday's what brought me here
Learning to live in this moment
Safe in God's hands

Just for today I'll step up to the plate
I won't run away, look myself in the face
Let God in, start again
I'm willing to do it His way
Let the tears fall where they may
Just for today

I sang this at a 12-step meeting last Saturday. I played guitar. It wasn't perfect. But it's ok. Living in the moment is so much less stressful than zooming out and focusing on the master plan. Because we never have the master plan. God has the puzzle box, and we have a few pieces. Play your piece. And pray for peace.

Being Human

Some famous philosopher said "to be is to do." Another said "to do is to be." Sinatra said "do be do be do." I find it very difficult to "just be." I can veg out with the best of them -- after I've DONE something. I've had seasons of being way too busy and I complained about it. I'm in a season right now where everything I do is my own doing. I don't have a boss, other than God. And if I am hearing God correctly through the words of the Bible and the counsel of my praying friends, the message is "rest in God's peace." There is a story in the Bible about Mary and Martha. (they were sisters and they had Jesus over for supper) Martha was ticked at Mary because instead of helping with the meal, Mary was listening to Jesus. Martha asked Jesus to rebuke Mary, and instead he stood up for Mary, saying she was doing what was best. I guess my point is that it's easier for me to be a "human doing" than a "human being." But I must trust that there are seasons for doing and seasons for being. While I'm "being" I hope I am "being prepared" for what I'm here on earth to do. For now, I'll be. Peace out.